Up & Down

Delivering pizza is one of those jobs you’ll find quite a few people to have had in the past. It’s a pretty quick and easy way to chalk out some money to pay the bills and it gives the person a bit of an interesting experience being out and about. That’s what ended up getting me. At my peak I was ripping through three packs of smokes a day on the road. My body had become what essentially added up to a chain smoking machine but man did I have one heck of a relationship with nicotine. At that point I had been smoking for probably over ten years and had no doubt come a long way from smoking twigs as a kid.

Time flew by over that ten year period. The sickly dance with the smoke ultimately had left me coughing up some more than undesirable junk. One day the coughing got me good and up came a bit of blood. Yep. Scared the absolute hell right out of me. There had been countless times I’d tried to quit in the past but it had finally come time for its end. The coughing wasn’t funny anymore and neither were the cracks coming from my sternum which was probably turning into beef jerky. So I went to the river to bury that son of a gun for good. Threw that pack right into the river and..

Went right back to the corner store to get some more by morning. Pretty wild huh? Well I did end up quitting not long after that but it didn’t go without a fight. The person I am now looks back onto that and wonders how the heck I managed to get to that point, gross. If you look at all of the things you’ve went to do in life and where they ended you could ask yourself why it didn’t pick back up? The same goes for everything you’ve done thus far that you still do. Why are you still doing it?

You can pick up and put down just about anything in life. Cigarettes to hobbies, careers, relationships, books, you name it, they’ve all got beginnings and ends to them. They can just about all be picked up, put down, and grabbed up again. To get anywhere with anything you’re bound to pick it up and put it down just about fifty times. So next time you are feeling down on yourself it might pay dividends to ask yourself why it matters when you can simply try again tomorrow.

Don’t give it up and don’t give in. Building a path to where you want to go takes time and exploration.

Take care friends,

Jordan